User blog:ThunderWaves/Confession


 * I need to confess something...
 * Every time I come on chat..
 * It's another lie
 * Another secret
 * I'm not supposed to be on here at all
 * I'd be so grounded
 * But I hate barely seeing my friends
 * It's not fair
 * That's why sometimes I go so quickly
 * Bc my mom, dad, sisters, or 1/2 bro is around
 * You still on?
 * I actually shouldn't even be on talk pages/message walls
 * Nothing
 * No communication outside of rl
 * That's why I can't wait till I am 18
 * Then I don't have to live a lie anymore

That was pasted from chat. I want you all to know the lie I live to be on Wikia. I cannot stop. I will not. I want to be someone. I want to be known. Wikia makes me feel loved not only in my family and in a Christian community, but also for who I am otherwise. Not all of you are Christians, and yet you accept me. I need that. I have no nonChristian acceptance outside of Wikia.

I hope you all understand and don't hate me.

One more thing: when I left for a while, it wasn't because I was busy. It was bc I wanted to stop living a lie. It didn't work. I can't not do this. I need to.

They can stretch me out like canvas, but I ain't ever  gonna fit in their frame!  23:29, September 23, 2015 (UTC)